Sooo there is this guy, let's call him Ryan (always liked that name) Ryan is a guy that I first saw about 3 years ago and he was soooo gorgeous. Made my heart skip a beat, I couldn't control my self everytime I saw him, to make a long story short I fell in love from the first time I laid my eyes on him. Now that guy is in America and I'm in Sweden. He is living the big life while I'm here and trying to figure out how I'm gonna fly over the big sea to gett there. The problem is that I haven't figured it out yet...... Every day that goes by I think of him, not in a wierd, psycho way but in the way that I don't feel complete. It always feels like some part of me is missing, like there is a whole inside me that can't be filled unless he is by my side. There are pictures, videos and everything else but you know, that's not enough. I've set up a time limit for my self that in about 3 years I will make that dream come true and somehow I WILL move to Los Angeles, California to be as close as possible to him. The book will be complete, I will make enough money and move far away from all the problems here. I know there will probably be problems in L.A to but that's a risk I'll have to take. There are problems everywhere and NOBODY can avoid them.
Ryan is "growing on me" more and more every day and even if I'll have to earn minimum wage when I move I'll do it, nothing and nobody will stop me from achieving my BIGGEST DREAM and that is to move to America to be more precise Los Angeles, California.
