Every time I make something to eat it turns out to be the best meal I have eaten (so far at least)
Everybody that has eaten my food think that it s really delicious. That's a good thing because then I know that it's good food that I make and not something that can be found in the dumpster.
My sister has told me almost every time when I cook something that I should be a chef (sometimes she probably forgets but I know she likes it) About the chef thing, hmmm, I don't really know if I wanna be a "professional" or work in a big kitchen. It's stressful and when you screw up then it's a bad thing. I don't like the stress and my mind and stomach can't take it. I have had gastritis a few years now. I am 22 and I got it at 14 or 15, that's a long time.
Now I got it "under control" for example I don't eat hot, spicy, fat or strong food in general. I avoid fizzy drinks, like coca cola, pepsi and other stuff that are carbonated.
When it hurts to much, which it sometimes does then I have some pills that i got from the doctor, I can't get addicted by them and they help normally after 30 minutes and then I can live my life like nothing happened.
As far as the cooking thing goes, it's not my passion in life. My true passion is writing music, books or other stuff that I like to write about and get out there in th world, share things with other people that come out of my mind.
Right now I am writing on two books, thinking about another one. I'm not gonna talk what it's about but I think and hope that people will like it. Yeah maybe it's dumb, stupid and maybe I wont get published in this life time but I still write and hope for the best. It maybe wont happen in a year, five years or even ten years but I won't throw it away and I ain't give up on the dream.
I want to write lyrics and give them to some people but I have no idea where to start with all that. It's really difficult to get in touch with some real performers and get them to at least look at the stuff.
As of this moment I am really confused about my books, lyrics and everything else. I know that I wont give up on the dream of becoming somebody, putting my name out in the world, letting people know that I exist (somebody else then my family)
If it takes a lifetime I will make it happen I will make some money doing the things that I love and not working in a factory for minimum wage and struggle every month to pay the bills and other stuff.
Keeping my fingers crossed and hoping to the fullest that everything will turn out to the best.
